March 28th 2017
I originally started writing this blog after giving up smoking for a couple of days. I wanted to share my experiences and hopefully help others that were taking the same journey...I lasted just over 3 months smoke-free....In other words I failed :( It doesn't really matter what triggered me to start smoking again, what matters is that I wasn't successful.
I've been telling myself (and everyone else!) for the last 12 months that I NEED to give up smoking....After a few feeble attempts, I never quite made it!! Not sure why...I do know it is something that I HAVE to do.....More than ever at the moment....But the one thing I am focusing on the most at the moment is August this year.
I am going to become a Grandmother....At the moment I am struggling to buy my little Grandson as much as I would like....I love buying him things, but also it would be a huge help to my daughter if I could help her out with essential baby things :)
Also, my other daughter is getting married in August!! I would love to be able to contribute more money towards her special day.....
So I guess above all the obvious health benefits, having more money is the thing that is spurring me on more than anything.
Today is day 2 without smoking. I would like to go cold turkey but have tried this before and it didn't work, so I am Vaping....
I have been up 4 hours now and I have to say that the fact that I haven't had a cigarette for almost 24 hours hasn't left my mind for a single second.
Previously, I have always made sure I had a few cigarettes left, just in case, which is ridiculous really, because what that means is that eventually, I will smoke them....So this time I have made sure there are none in the house.....If there had been any, I would be smoking one right now, because I am struggling, which is why I decided to start this diary...I don't know if it will help, but previously, during times of stress, writing my thoughts down has helped.
It keeps coming over me in waves....I will be ok and then all of a sudden I feel anxious and need a cigarette. I start thinking how easy it would be to just nip out and buy some, I even imagine myself doing it and how good I would feel after my first puff...I then have an internal argument with myself....So far the part of me that KNOWS how much I MUST give up is winning.....
I originally started writing this blog after giving up smoking for a couple of days. I wanted to share my experiences and hopefully help others that were taking the same journey...I lasted just over 3 months smoke-free....In other words I failed :( It doesn't really matter what triggered me to start smoking again, what matters is that I wasn't successful.
I've been telling myself (and everyone else!) for the last 12 months that I NEED to give up smoking....After a few feeble attempts, I never quite made it!! Not sure why...I do know it is something that I HAVE to do.....More than ever at the moment....But the one thing I am focusing on the most at the moment is August this year.
I am going to become a Grandmother....At the moment I am struggling to buy my little Grandson as much as I would like....I love buying him things, but also it would be a huge help to my daughter if I could help her out with essential baby things :)
Also, my other daughter is getting married in August!! I would love to be able to contribute more money towards her special day.....
So I guess above all the obvious health benefits, having more money is the thing that is spurring me on more than anything.
Today is day 2 without smoking. I would like to go cold turkey but have tried this before and it didn't work, so I am Vaping....
I have been up 4 hours now and I have to say that the fact that I haven't had a cigarette for almost 24 hours hasn't left my mind for a single second.
Previously, I have always made sure I had a few cigarettes left, just in case, which is ridiculous really, because what that means is that eventually, I will smoke them....So this time I have made sure there are none in the house.....If there had been any, I would be smoking one right now, because I am struggling, which is why I decided to start this diary...I don't know if it will help, but previously, during times of stress, writing my thoughts down has helped.
It keeps coming over me in waves....I will be ok and then all of a sudden I feel anxious and need a cigarette. I start thinking how easy it would be to just nip out and buy some, I even imagine myself doing it and how good I would feel after my first puff...I then have an internal argument with myself....So far the part of me that KNOWS how much I MUST give up is winning.....
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