March 30th 2017
Ok today is proving to be difficult already. (Only been up 3 hours) Not helped by the fact that my vaping pen was flat when I got up this morning and I had to wait 2 hours for it to be charged up before I got my 'fix'. I've been inhaling very deeply on it and far too frequently since it was charged, to the point that my throat is burning and I feel slightly sick.
I NEED TO GET A SPARE BATTERY!!
Yesterday was comparatively easy....No major cravings, no anxiety.
I can't stop my mind wandering.....I keep imagining that trip to the shops, buying a packet with the intention of only smoking ONE cigarette, remembering how much I enjoyed smoking and imagining how good I would feel after that much needed little stick of bliss!! It would be so easy to do that, nobody would even know........
Obviously, I can't do that...A single puff on a cigarette and I will be smoking again. I know that.
I feel anxious, I feel a little bit emotional. I don't want to leave the house today, don't trust myself....
BUT I have plans today. I will go out and I WON'T buy any of what are, after all, useless, nasty sticks full of (Why do I want to say "Full of all things nice"??) POISON!
Be strong Julia, be strong!!
Concentrate on this little baby boy (My Grandson) Imagine all the nice things you can buy him....Think about how much you want to be around to see him grow up...
Ok today is proving to be difficult already. (Only been up 3 hours) Not helped by the fact that my vaping pen was flat when I got up this morning and I had to wait 2 hours for it to be charged up before I got my 'fix'. I've been inhaling very deeply on it and far too frequently since it was charged, to the point that my throat is burning and I feel slightly sick.
I NEED TO GET A SPARE BATTERY!!
Yesterday was comparatively easy....No major cravings, no anxiety.
I can't stop my mind wandering.....I keep imagining that trip to the shops, buying a packet with the intention of only smoking ONE cigarette, remembering how much I enjoyed smoking and imagining how good I would feel after that much needed little stick of bliss!! It would be so easy to do that, nobody would even know........
Obviously, I can't do that...A single puff on a cigarette and I will be smoking again. I know that.
I feel anxious, I feel a little bit emotional. I don't want to leave the house today, don't trust myself....
BUT I have plans today. I will go out and I WON'T buy any of what are, after all, useless, nasty sticks full of (Why do I want to say "Full of all things nice"??) POISON!
Be strong Julia, be strong!!
Concentrate on this little baby boy (My Grandson) Imagine all the nice things you can buy him....Think about how much you want to be around to see him grow up...
Quitting smoking is tough... I quit a little over 2 years ago... the first 3 weeks were the toughest... it got easier with time.
ReplyDeleteI sometimes think about having one but I never give in because it will become more and I love how I feel without it. I like that I have money for other things.
Keep strong, it will get easier ♡
Thank you - Day 22 now. Hardest thing I have ever done.
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