April 2nd 2017
Ok, so yesterday I bought the baby some gorgeous things!!
And I have already spent next week's Smoking money and ordered a lovely Moses basket for him.
I have also promised all next months smoking money to my daughter towards the pram.
I have told my other daughter that I can now give her extra money towards her wedding.....
No going back now!!
However today I feel a bit scared about it all....It's kinda like it's only just dawned on me that living without cigarettes isn't a temporary thing, it's forever....Feeling emotional again.
I don't seem to be Vaping as much, which is good because I was beginning to wonder if I was overdoing it a bit. It's almost like I have to keep reminding myself that it's ok to Vape, but I don't really feel like I need to anymore and yet the cravings for a cigarette are stronger. I'm guessing that is down more to the emotional addiction rather than the physical one?
Not seeing any improvements to my health yet....In fact quite the opposite; Insomnia, constipation and mood swings, not feeling angry or even irritable, just a bit giddy one minute and crying the next.
I feel like I need a bit of extra motivation today...I got a huge buzz out of buying the baby stuff yesterday and then again ordering the Moses basket this morning. Lovely to know I can help out both my daughters next month and yet.......I dunno, I'm not sure, I can't seem to shake the feeling that something massive is missing from my life.....
Ok, so yesterday I bought the baby some gorgeous things!!
And I have already spent next week's Smoking money and ordered a lovely Moses basket for him.
I have also promised all next months smoking money to my daughter towards the pram.
I have told my other daughter that I can now give her extra money towards her wedding.....
No going back now!!
However today I feel a bit scared about it all....It's kinda like it's only just dawned on me that living without cigarettes isn't a temporary thing, it's forever....Feeling emotional again.
I don't seem to be Vaping as much, which is good because I was beginning to wonder if I was overdoing it a bit. It's almost like I have to keep reminding myself that it's ok to Vape, but I don't really feel like I need to anymore and yet the cravings for a cigarette are stronger. I'm guessing that is down more to the emotional addiction rather than the physical one?
Not seeing any improvements to my health yet....In fact quite the opposite; Insomnia, constipation and mood swings, not feeling angry or even irritable, just a bit giddy one minute and crying the next.
I feel like I need a bit of extra motivation today...I got a huge buzz out of buying the baby stuff yesterday and then again ordering the Moses basket this morning. Lovely to know I can help out both my daughters next month and yet.......I dunno, I'm not sure, I can't seem to shake the feeling that something massive is missing from my life.....
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