My personal journey - Day 8 smoke free

Well after saying yesterday, that although I felt sad, I hadn't felt irritated, today I am fighting an overwhelming urge to punch someone!.....Luckily there is nobody around to punch right now!

I went to bed early last night, got off to sleep straight away, which is a bonus, but woke up about 6 times! Not sure why? Feeling incredibly tired today....I'm sure that isn't helping my mood much. 
I'm hungry and yet I have eaten!! 
Today is not a good day!! 

Some time ago, during one of my many failed attempts, my daughter bought me some Herbal (Nicotine free) cigarettes, I tried 3 of them and they tasted and smelt like the devil's arse, so I gave up on them and carried on smoking the real thing.
This morning I was really craving a cigarette, so thought I would try one of those again.....Not sure it was a good move, it reminded me just how much I enjoy the actual act of smoking and having a cigarette in my hand....Still tasted and smelt like the devil's arse, but all of sudden that didn't seem to matter anymore....I enjoyed it that much that I smoked another one straight afterwards...I have now broken them all up into tiny pieces and thrown them away...They were expensive!! Even though they are Nicotine free, I don't want to end up being hooked on them, because I will no longer be saving as much money.

In need of extra motivation today!!



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