My personal journey - Day 15 Smoke Free

10th April 2017

The cravings are less. I'm not relying on vaping as much now to get me through the day.  
I had actually been up an hour before I even thought about vaping this morning. 

I don't even enjoy vaping....It's just a means to an end.

Having said that, I couldn't have got this far without vaping.

I felt a bit sad yesterday. It was my 2-week mark, an important milestone, something to celebrate, but somehow I felt sad....So many people, friends and family, had said they would support me if I ever gave up....but where are they when I need a bit of encouragement and extra motivation? 

I'm not even sure what I expect from them? 

Maybe just the odd text now and again asking me how I am doing would help. 

Unless I message them and remind them how many days I have gone, or post about it on Facebook, I don't hear anything from them.....Maybe they just don't think I have it in me to give up for good? I will prove them wrong.

I guess what that has made me realise is that at the end of the day, the only person that is taking this journey is me...

If I could use one word to describe how I am feeling right now, it would be 'Alone'.

My skin looks awful. My face looks tired. I AM tired!  
I am sleeping so much better at night now, but am still shattered during the day. Making decisions and concentrating on anything is difficult. 
I feel bloated.....I look bloated...I AM bloated.

I miss smoking. I enjoyed smoking.

I just have to keep reminding myself about all that money I have promised to my daughters, for the new baby, for the wedding....I can't go back now. I Can't break those promises....I CAN DO THIS!! 

I'm doing well. I have been smoke-free for 15 days.