April 1st 2017
Yesterday was a strange day. I felt odd...Fuzzy head, slightly detached from myself....I Googled it and apparently it is normal after giving up smoking. It is because the oxygen levels in my blood are returning to normal.When you smoke some of the space where oxygen should be is taken up with Carbon Monoxide....The Carbon Monoxide is now out of my system. Pretty scary that when you think about it, isn't it! (My body was that used to not having normal levels of oxygen, that it now feels weird as it returns to normal!!)
Up until yesterday, every thought in my head was taken over by the fact that I was no longer smoking. Yesterday it was odd. I kept forgetting and reaching for a cigarette, then remembering and feeling sad. It wasn't like a craving, it was like a habit that I've had for so many years suddenly wasn't there anymore and I missed it, not needed it, just missed it.....A bit like an old friend that is no longer around....Almost felt like I was grieving.
The good thing is that, today, I can go shopping and buy the baby a cute little designer outfit that I saw last week and couldn't afford.
I've become a little bit obsessed with thinking about things I can buy....In my head I have already spent all of what would have been my cigarette money for next month...
This is good because I have got passed the: "I really hope I can do this" stage and moved on to "I'm going to do this!"
Yesterday was a strange day. I felt odd...Fuzzy head, slightly detached from myself....I Googled it and apparently it is normal after giving up smoking. It is because the oxygen levels in my blood are returning to normal.When you smoke some of the space where oxygen should be is taken up with Carbon Monoxide....The Carbon Monoxide is now out of my system. Pretty scary that when you think about it, isn't it! (My body was that used to not having normal levels of oxygen, that it now feels weird as it returns to normal!!)
Up until yesterday, every thought in my head was taken over by the fact that I was no longer smoking. Yesterday it was odd. I kept forgetting and reaching for a cigarette, then remembering and feeling sad. It wasn't like a craving, it was like a habit that I've had for so many years suddenly wasn't there anymore and I missed it, not needed it, just missed it.....A bit like an old friend that is no longer around....Almost felt like I was grieving.
The good thing is that, today, I can go shopping and buy the baby a cute little designer outfit that I saw last week and couldn't afford.
I've become a little bit obsessed with thinking about things I can buy....In my head I have already spent all of what would have been my cigarette money for next month...
This is good because I have got passed the: "I really hope I can do this" stage and moved on to "I'm going to do this!"
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